high school

isnt quite as happy as it was in the beginning. there's no drama thank god
... but there is so much stress. this shit actually counts in life so i need to get great grades.
my dad like hates me when i dont too. and my mom just says whatever he does.

i like someone though...
and when we talk/hang out well its actually great. lunch, yearbook, dance, and science is the best... and spanish isnt all that bad either. haha

i hope that soon life will be less stressful and i will be able to enjoy the little things a bit more... at least how i once did(:

florida

is quite hot. and humid.

but its all right with me

my cousin julia, aunt iris, and ONE-YEAR-OLD cousin bradley will be joining my sister and grandparents here in florida on saturday. tonight i will be having dinner with my BFFF

(best friends from florida)

i met them last year and seriously we were meant to be friends though we live on opposite sides of the US.

im super excited.

and then on friday i will sleepover at their house along with my sister.

im having fun here..... but im starting to get bored here.

i miss my friends so much.

and worst of all..... i think i reallllllly like a guy, and for some reason it sucks.

im glad that all the drama is behind me and im kind of looking forward to a new school.

highschool hopefully will be fun cause ive got 4 years of it coming on.

i have texting which highly excites me!!

and i am hoping to stay ing touch with good friends and loose the bad ones.

bye for now but not forever.

YMCA

is fun.
i want to do it next year.. i looooove being a CIT. its just amazing.
my favorite things i have done so far are meeting estelle and tylan[:
i <3 them
beating up brandon with a water botttle... hahaha (long story, he deserved it MAJORLY)
first day of texting at camp
zoo! (moorpark) hahaha the monkeys
sean and taji<3
WATER FIGHT!
killing like 1,000,000,000 ants... no joke.
lanyards
beads
friendship bracelets
this summer is turning out pretty good so far and its only the 3rd week!
i cant wait for florida!!

its weird..

lately im not happy
or excited for some reason

i feel that im not the hyper little exciting person i once was.
even though summer is close and i say im excited
sometimes i feel like my emotion switch is just shut off
i dont know how it happened.
nothing HORRIBLE is happening right now.
i mean there's one thing... but i dont think thats it.
whatever. i just hope i get "better".

saying goodbye looser...[:

wow... so a lot of things have changed in the past two days.
i found out that my "best friend" who i never was really close with was talking behind my back saying that i really 'let myself go' , but atleast i have a pretty face
well shes one to talk
anyways, she never had been a great friend, 7 months later she still hasn't given me a birthday present.
she always makes catty remarks not knowing what she has done wrong
and get pissed at me for no reason. i dont need to surround myself with people as bitchy as her so i decided today that i am forever not her friend anymore.
friends dont gossip saying mean things about another and if they do then they shouldnt be treated as friends.
so goodbye looser!


i feel better knowing that im not faking a friendship any longer because i never liked her that much, i was mainly her friend only because it is rare that she is capable making new friends because of her habbits. i know its kinda mean but i only tell the truth on my blog[:

sick.

being sick isnt fun.
the best part, is when you get to miss school but the older you get the less fun even that is cause you have to make up so much work.
hmm i left at lunch today.
13 days of school left
i just straightened my hair
im gonna get a new gift for promotion
drama is okay
im in summer health but online
saturday was the best day of my life in a long long time
i love amy
i love taylor
i love andrea
im gonna see tegan and sara july 5
i cant wait for june 8th oh i hope i got into dance!



random thoughts i know, but if you have a problem with that then you should read my blog![:
hmmm life sucks just a little bit right now.

an ode to sandcastles

not really, i SOOO cannot do poetry, well heres my hypothetical lesson of the day.
sandcastles
you are horrible
i mean i always have a picture on how its gonna look, my obviously my skills in making sandcastles are limited.
and all that time spent on making it for what??
just to see a wave engulf it and turn it back into a great big pile of mush?
theres no magic like you see in the movies
but how can you become a pro at making them when you have no experience?
oh well, but right now... its too young to learn for it all means nothing.

anyone who reads this... if your confused, then you have a right to be.
-RCG

my batmitzvah

was a year ago..
its so weird thinking that it was a year ago already.
that went so fast.
when i start thinking about that, i feel so old though im only 14
too bad i never have an excuse to wear my beautiful dress i bought :(
heehee, i sometimes though like randomly.
my sisters party was so much fun!
omg. i loved it and i hope i can have a party like that!
hahaha it was so cute and surprisingly my sister has some pretty kickass friends
they are going to be SOO much fun to hang out with when their drunk... jk
but they were acting like they were.. its the fruit punch i guess.
the only bad part was that amy wasnt there but were gonna make it up and roxie and her are going to have to go to the mall sometime soon[:
love you!!
-RGC

beach was fun

i just made brownies and they smell yummy[:
i REALLY want some but imma wait till tomorrow.
i didnt want to go into the water cause it was cold... but i went in 2 times. and my body was numb
but i loved it. and i got super hyper and screamed a bunch
fun. fun. fun.
<3 the beach so much
sarah's party tomorrow im excited so much cause roxie and .. uhh, AMS *wink, wink*
is coming over. yay!!

well im going to the beach

tomorrow[:
im SUPAH excited
its for keeping up my YY points at school, and i have 100
last year i lost 11 points and made up 10
but the last one i decided i didnt feel like making up simply cause the beach trip wasnt that much fun... and cause im a bad-ass
heehee
but in 6th grade i only lost 1 point and being a goody-two-shoes-kiss-up-sixth-grader i made it up.. and i went on the beach trip
this year though, i mean its my last but i lost no points lol
so im going and im gonna get a tan!
cause im in desperate need for one
ugh, middle school has so much drama and pointless relationships (im not pointing my finger at someone in particular)
i think its just so stupid and it doesnt mean a thing, i mean its not like your gonna marry you middle school "sweetheart". whatever
on a lighter note i CANNOT WAIT FOR SATURDAY, theres gonna be some major partying in mah houseeee lol... sortof jk. but not really.

-RGC<3

so i took a quiz

on what religion i should be based on my beliefs, and i got that i should be a
Theravada Buddhist, and now i think im going to look it up[:
i never heard of one before but i think that these kind of quizes are cool.
mostly because there are tons of people who are a certain religion only because they were born into it and then they are told what to believe. my family is pretty lax about religion and im pretty lucky to be able to chose things like this.
so here ya go... its the link:
http://www.beliefnet.com/Entertainment/Quizzes/BeliefOMatic.aspx

its pretty interesting!

i feel good,

i just helped someone
so here's what happened.... (its a long story)
my best friend roxie* was dating matt* for like 3 months
and i didnt find out untill about a month after they started dating
matt was a little bit obsessed with roxie and after a while she couldnt handle it anymore.
she didnt say yes to him in the first place because she felt bad if she said 'no' or just
because they were friends... infact up until his whole problem, she didnt regret dating him
im still not sure that she does.
now roxie is one of the nicest people anyone is sure to meet, i mean you could search the world and never find someone quite as nice as her. and its not just that... she funny, smart, has a great personality, kind heart, and if that wasnt enough, shes quite pretty if i do say so myself. and i have had the pleasure of knowing her since 2nd grade. [:
matt on the otherhand, is smart, can be funny, and a super nice person too. but i didnt know him until 7th grade so only about 2 years.
he adored her, i mean whats not to like about roxie??
but he was more like a lost puppy than a boyfrien. yes, he gave her a cute stuffed animal for valentines day and was a good boyfriend. but pretty soon... she was tired of the random awkward scilence that would fill the room randomly and him following her around 24/7. she knew that she had dragged it out far too long. and that she had to end it and that it would hurt him but continueung ut woulld be just that much worse. so one day... she ended it.
from then on, he has been totally depressed. he quit track, which was one of his favorite things to do. and started swearing... but i dont know much details about that. he skipped school .... mostly because he had the flu... but i think part of the time he was underthe weather but not from being sick.
but IT WASNT ROXIE'S FAULT!
i mean what was she to do?
she though he would get over her but....

three weeks past.
and that brings me to today.
i was talking to matt on facebook today.
he told me that he couldnt get over her and he still wont... he adores her.
literally that was the EXACT word he used.
not knowing him very well made it a little bit awkward. and even though hes still obviously depressed, i think my little lame-therapist-impression may have worked just a bit.
i told him that getting over roxie would be difficult and though people expect it to just happen, it doesnt work that way. everyone will have a different rate that their reactions happen just like chemicals. and you cant force a chemical reaction. you just have to let the chips fall where they may. matt will get over roxie... but only time can tell. so i think im going to ask mr. second hand just when that is. now im going to post this before it gets any longer and before i sound anymore like a fortune cookie :D
goodnight my love<3
-RGC





*fake code names

first day of star testing...

was kinda weird.
i dunno... so many rules!
i mean they spend like 15 mins telling how to fill in a bubble...
i mean god! we are in what now? 8th grade?
and we have been testing since 2nd grade... i think by 6 years they dont need to spend a half an hour telling us how to write our teacher and school name on the paper.
but whatever enough of my complaining.
the test wasnt too bad, we started on english today.
but they gave us way too much time.
i finished and there was still and hour and a half left until we were released.
and we only started on what was supposedly part one. but that was only 35 questions.
i wish we just got all of the english over with.
well tomorrow we start on math so that should be fun.
i like math and this year.... im good at it!
so whatever im excited[:
-RGC

my first post

so my name is Rachel Cohen
i am in my last year of middle school and i am 14 years old
i dont know much about life but what i can infer is that nothing is truly simple
when it is... then your doing something wrong.
i dont really like writing that much, but who knows?
this blog might just help me change my mind.
this is just for me, a private place to write my thoughts so maybe i can look back at this someday.
im probally not going to write in this very often but ill see.
who knows what life will bring me next...